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boyfriend check list
Thursday, August 05, 2010 8:55 AM
So much on my mind lately. Boyfriend has been so busy with his new job as some PR guy lately, so I've been feeling pretty lonely. I guess I've been acting a bit selfish, but maybe we're just in different stages of life at the moment and I just can't understand what it would be like in his situation. I'm not sure if it's a bad sign or not, but I've been thinking about a good boyfriend "check list". I never got to make one, but I saw someone on Tumblr posting one. I'm not trying to sound shallow, and it's perfectly alright if my boyfriend/future boyfriend/past boyfriend didn't meet some of them. It's just a good way to make sure that I don't somehow get lured in my some guy's false charms and end up in a sucky relationship with him. So, here it goes. Just improvising.

  1. Physical attraction. People say looks aren't everything, but that's false. We're human. The first thing we notice about someone is what they look like. And it's okay if the guy's not model material - I'm far from it. But he has to be at least somewhat decent looking, or I would have no attraction at all.
  2. Knows where he's going in life. I suppose this is more important when I'm older, or if the guy is older, but I don't want a guy who doesn't know what the heck he's doing and just slacks off everyday. If a guy can't even take care of himself, how can I expect him to take care of me? I'm not saying I need to be constantly watched and taken care of, but if we do eventually marry... I don't want to babysit my husband.
  3. Sense of humor, and sometimes has a bit of a child in him. I've always wanted to do pranks in public with a friend. If my boy can do this, I will love him even more. One of my hobbies. I love laughing and joking around, and I get a little intimidated at people who are constantly serious. But at the same time, I don't want him to be constantly joking around. There are times when you need to stop.
  4. More SPONTANEOUS than romantic. I love guys who know what and where the next date will be. I love guys who will show up at your window (or in my case, apartment) when you tell them you're sad. I love guys who will just cheer you up by surprising you. Bonus bonus BONUS points to any guy who does this.
  5. Accept me for my religion. Because my religion is more of a relationship. If my boyfriend hates me or will not accept the fact that I am a Christian, I have to say that I can not be with him unless he changes. It'll just ruin our relationship. I'm not trying to force my religion on anyone, I just need him to accept it.
  6. Please don't be completely shy. Not everyone's a party animal, but I don't like guys who are always shy. Honestly, I can't really stand those REALLY awkward, shy guys as my boyfriend. I can be shy and awkward too so it's alright if you're a little, but not all the time and I'm trying to be more outgoing. I love guys who can introduce themselves to people and at least pretend they feel comfortable in a crowd of people. I like guys who can make the first move.
  7. Trust & honesty. This is definitely a must. I don't need to say any more.
  8. Just love me for who I am, not what I am. I'm not sure if I worded that right, but please don't love me because I have money (which I don't, but it's just an example). Love me because I'm... me.
I guess that's it for now.

& even if some guy meets all these points, it doesn't mean that he'll be the perfect guy. Honestly, I think my boy meets almost all these points, and we still do have a lot of problems. Maybe it's because we sometimes have a problem with trust, which is basically the foundation of all relationships. Well...

Could be something
Saturday, July 24, 2010 10:35 AM
Oh, Tumblr's not working so I'm using blogspot today. I haven't used this in so long, but I kind of miss it. I like how it's more like a blog here compared to Tumblr. I'm planning on trying to take at least 1 picture everyday and post it here and talk about what happened that day. Like a real blog. But I always say that, and end up wasting my time doing it and then not doing it after a few days.

Anyways, today was very very unproductive the first half of the day. I woke up at around 12:30 PM, which is late for me, because you know it's pretty much the first day of summer break, in a way. (Classes everyday after summer started but now they're done, yay!) Finally Andrea woke up & we went shopping at Dong Chu and Ximen.

Why is Andrea's face so awkward, HAHAHA.

The BF was working today, so I went to see him but didn't stay for long because Andrea wanted to go shopping. Suddenly Rich called me, and told me to come because he wanted me to translate for him. To be honest I was a little annoyed because I felt he was using me and only wanted me around to translate his words to his audience. But I still went over, and there was this guy named John Hinton who told us about his show next week on Friday. We chatted for a while, and he was actually very nice. He's actually a magician from California who's visiting his friends in Taiwan, and his show was some benefit show for Haiti. He told Rich he was even interested in performing and/or practicing magic with him!

I don't like my face here, but whateverr :))

But the thing I thought was the most amazing was after I went home, I checked out this John Hinton guy and he's actually a youth pastor from California who does magic to spread the Word of God or something. Honestly, I thought he was a little sketchy in the first place but because he was so nice. People usually aren't this nice (so it's really a compliment). This makes me wonder, though: how many people have I met are Christian? It kind of makes me sad, at the same time, that he never told me he was a Christian. I guess I like to see this kind of connection. I know, it might be odd for him to have told me that today, especially because he had no idea that I was a Christian either. And, sometimes it's just not accepted in society for you to go around immediately introducing yourself as a Christian to others (I suppose, unless you're evangelizing or are on a mission's trip or something).

Anyways, I really want to see this guy's show. I'm very, very, very curious to see what he has to show. Now that I know he's a youth pastor, it makes me excited to get to know this guy & watch his show! And I truly hope that Rich can work with him someday. I'm planning to convince and even beg Rich to consider going to this guy's show if I have to.

On a personal note, I really think there was a reason for me meeting this guy. I mean, I just happened to be at Ximen when Mr. Hinton talked to Rich, and Rich just happened to call me as well (he never really tells me to translate for him, unless I'm already there). Lately, I think I've been drifting away from God and I really want to come back. I don't know how meeting a youth pastor would help me, but I mean, there's a reason for everything.

Man, I really want to go to Friday's show! That's the same day I'm coming back from Hualien, so I'm not sure if I can make it. I don't know how I would tell my mom either. "Oh, can Uncle Richard drive faster so I can go to a magic show?" Yeah, right. Well I'm praying! If God wants me to talk to Mr. Hinton, He's gonna find a way to let me make it to his show, or at least chat with him sometime.


thinking positive
Wednesday, February 24, 2010 1:26 AM
it's so easy for me to think negatively of everything. my goal this year is to think positive. i have a new life and environment ahead of me, and i keep thinking negative, which makes it even worse. it sucks here, but i've found out that when i think positive and keep a smile on my face and what's been given to me... i can make it. thinking positive makes the day so much better. don't focus so much on the past - remember it, but don't worry about it - and think about what's happening now. if you put your head too much on the past, you're never gonna go anywhere. think about what's going on right this moment, and how it will affect your (my) future positively. God has a plan for me here. i can do it. my negativity blinds me from all the blessings taiwan has to offer.

amen