underwater
Monday, April 20, 2009 7:35 PM
right now i'm on my porch in my backyard facing... my backyard and the wonderful view of the houses above my house. i live on a mountain so all the houses aren't very lined up perfectly, and it looks like a wave of houses because of all the uneven-ness of the hills. i have my earphones in my ears with no sound on so all i can hear is the loud bird chirping outside and my breathing. (that's how good these skullcandy earphones are) it reminds me of when i'm holding my breath underwater and all i can hear is - i was gonna say my breathing, but i realized how impossible that was - just my movements.
it feels like summer already started because of the hot hot weather, and if anyone told me summer started on saturday, i would have believed them 100% because that just shows how hot it is (and how i'm the only one who doesn't know when seasons start). i really hate the hot weather because it makes me grumpy, but now that it's hot it also makes me feel happy inside. it reminds me of last summer and just pure happiness for some reason, and i never felt this way before. it reminds me of nature because right now i hear a grasshopper ... making whatever noises they make even though it's not even night time and that's usually when i hear them. it reminds me of how fast my first year of high school went by. i feel like just yesterday i was in the mall deciding what backpack to get. seriously. and now i only have less than a month of school left (if you don't count weekends) when all the other schools have like 2 months or so. it's kinda happy because i get to finally relax, but this is my last year here and it's really sad & i'll miss everyone.
so now i'm not so sure if i like summer or not anymore.
and why is the weather so weird right now?